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Tuesday, 04 March 2008

  • so, i xanga stalked hawk just now, im fully, fully aware of how absurd this is. also, you do it to, so shut up.

    anyway, he said:
    I think that whatever God was doing when he made me, he was leaning toward "interesting, with a large dash of fucked up."

    &, i couldnt have put it better when describing myself. except, im not sure that interesting wouldnt be exchanged with weird. i know that im weird, and im not your average 25 year old girl. believe me, i know. i live it. but, i dont ever realize just how weird i am, until i tell someone something & they're just like "really...?"

    which, this is the thing. im fine with those things, i really am. in fact, i think they are things that make me who i am. (i mean, obviously.) i know its weird that i had never eaten a steak until a month ago. i know. there are a million stupid, weird things about me. you all know this.

    im shy around boys & new people. im generally convinced that no boy wants anything to do with me, under any circumstances. these things do not make my life easier.

    i think im just scared that im not ever going to find anyone who can appreciate my weirdness, and, if not appreciate the actual things, appreciate that they make me who i am.

    does that make sense?




    also, sorry i xanga stalked you, hawk, if you read this.

Tuesday, 26 February 2008

  • dude, seriously, shit sucks.

    i had a 13 hour day at the store, that included:
    • typing up this amazing business plan, pushing print & losing the whole thing.
    • finding out that our regional director came into my store, & had a terrible experience while i wasnt there.
    • realizing i really, really dont like my assistant manager
    • & last but not least, coming home & my cat puked all over my bed. spanning over three blankets. thanks cash!
    & im pretty sure the rest of the week is going to suck.

    & at this rate, the rest of the year./ my life.

    AWESOME.

    also, i wish i could quit being me & just be a normal person who believes that their friends like them. it would probably make my entire life a teensy bit easier. & i could honestly probably use that teensy bit right now.

Monday, 18 February 2008

  • well. on january first, i was sitting in the extended roommates house, and amy said that even numbered years arent good for her, and i was all cheerleader-esque & like THIS YEAR WILL BE GREAT. WE WILL OWN 2008.


    not so much. id say this year has so far been the worst ive had in a long, long time. i feel like shitty things just... keep happening. aside from my small group of friends, most things are pretty shitty. BUT that small group of friends is by far the best ive ever had in my life. the best part is that they almost all live in one house (kelly sleeps over... a lot) & they are all friends. the best part of my week is moments like sunday where i get to sit, and eat quiche & drink coffee, & listen & talk about how absurd our lives are, & how much money we arent making (& that those bracelets should cost more than $25). i dont know. maybe these people dont consider me a good friend of theirs, but im just really, really thankful they are in my life.

    & also, sometimes my friends just up & leave for california.

    i dont get it.

    & also, again, im a brunette. its weird.

    I WANT TO OWN 2008.
    help?